Nicaragua

In one month I will be in Nicaragua!! I am so excited! I will be going with my family and a group from our church (Troy First Baptist). We will be going to Managua, Nicaragua. We will be doing Bible school 2 times a day at two different locations! We will be leaving June 5 and back in that States on June 12th. Please pray for us while we prepare and as we travel and spread God's word and love!

The Places I've Been

I'm from traveling 8-15 hours to visit grandparents
I am from sittin' on Pawpaw's lap eating cashews
I'm from going to the zoo and shopping with Meme
I am from hunting and fishing with Dad and Pop
I'm from Aunt Peg's annual Christmas party
I am from playing with 16 cousins
From spending my birthday in 5 states
I'm from spending two weeks with Meme and Pop at the Lake House

I am from Springfield, Illinois
I'm from being born in St. John's hospital by Dr. John Saint
I'm from going to church every Sunday
I'm from climbing the stairs to my brother's room
I am from getting my first dog, Gizzy,
I'm from getting my first swing set
From stayin' up all night with Ms. Ruthie playing Farkle

I am from Fowler, Indiana
I am from eating fruity pebbles outside until Mr. Richard walked by
I'm from playing on the swing set with the babysitting kids
From walking to the library with my mom and brother in the summer
I am from waiting at the bus stop for my brother to get home from school
I'm from watching summer baseball games
I'm from becoming a big sister
from packin up boxes and moving when my dad said he was changing jobs

I am from Ankeny, Iowa
I'm from counting Pepsi trucks on the way to school
I am from my crazy brother's driving, blaring the music with the windows down
From talking "girl talk" while pulling all nighters with friends
I am from friday night football games
From going to Indiana every other Thanksgiving to visit the Tragessers
I'm from going to youth group on Sundays and Wednesdays
I am from waking up early on Tuesdays to go to Tuesday Morning Prayer
I'm from taking family vacations every summer
I am from building snow tunnels when it snowed alot
I'm from going sledding on the golf course
From babysitting the Oiens and the Byrds

I am from Aurora, Nebraska
I'm from turning sixteen and cruisin' the town
From havin' girls night out with Tabbie and Sam
I am from driving 25 minutes just to get to Walmart
I'm from taking weekend trips to visit friends in Iowa
I am from working as a teller at Heritage Bank
I'm from being a trainer for the football and basketball team
From being a Cubbies leader at church

I am from Seward, Nebraska
I'm from attending Concordia University
from sharing a bathroom with 28 girls
I am from chilling in Janzow with Rachel and Whitney
I am from staying all night in the art building
I'm from eating animal crackers with peanut butter
I am from pranking our brother floor
from weekend trips to lincoln with Mikaela

I am from Siloam Springs, Arkansas
I'm from John Brown University
From learning the "superman" swing with Holly
I am from girls night in with Holly and Jessi
I'm from coffee dates with Jessi
From having dinner with the Dees

I am from Troy, Tennessee
I'm from working at Walmart
from a place where everyone wears camo
I am from becoming a youth group leader at church
I'm from traveling less than 3 hours to see family
I am from Garth Brooks being my first country concert
I'm from blowing bubbles in the Walmart parking lot with Mallori
From attending the University of Tennessee at Martin

All these places and things have made me who I am today.

"What if blessings come through raindrops?"

I know its been awhile. I've had a very busy semester with not much time to write. A lot of things have been happening its just been crazy but God has been teaching me alot. I have so many posts to write I don't know where to begin.

This semester has been a hard one. I'm taking Chemistry. Anyone that knows me knows I am not a science person. That is why I am an interior design major. I hate science. I don't get it and someone trying to explain it to me doesn't help me understand it anymore than I already do. So it has been a struggle to say the least.

On top of that, My grandma was diagnosed with breast cancer in february. My grandpa had cancer. He died in 2006 from it. My aunt (all on the same side of the family) has cancer. Her and my grandma are both going through chemo right now. I was not prepared for this. I saw my grandpa and aunt go through this pain. I wasn't ready to see my grandma go through this same pain. I was so mad that she had cancer. On top of everything else. I didn't understand God's plan in doing this.

That is just the thing though. I don't need to understand God's plan. I will never understand God's plan. God knows what He is doing. He created ALL things. He knows EVERYTHING. What do I know? I can't even understand Chemistry. That is why He is in control and I am not.

My grandma having cancer hasn't been easy. It has taken away from my time with my mom because she has been going down to help take her and my aunt to appointments and treatments. It is hard seeing Meme sick and in pain. BUT God has a plan. He doing something big. My grandma is doing pretty well though. If you could keep her and my aunt in your prayers that would be awesome!

A song I have loved through this whole deal has been Blessings by Laura Story. It has helped me realize God is always in control. He will work in ways I can't imagine (even through my pain) and He is always with me. No matter what.

* I'm posting the lyrics because I love them, but if you don't want to read them I recommend youtubing it. They have some awesome videos of this song. For some reason it won't let me post a link to one. Anyways, here are the lyrics.

Blessings by Laura Story:

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Whatever you are going through, God will work through it, bring you closer to Him, and make you stronger. He will bring you through your fire, He is just refining you in the process!

Love after all, matters the most

LOVE.
this is what life is all about
God was the first to show us love.
because He loved us-
He died on the cross,
took our sins and put them on himself.
WoW.
REAL True Love.
This is what it is all about

Here is one of my new favorite songs
that goes right along with this:

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...
Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She's the woman whose husband has run away
She'll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would've stayed
And she says...

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
"Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home"

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
"I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I..."

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

-Love Me by JJ Heller

God loves you for you.
we don't have to do anything.
He knew us before we were alive.
He knows EVERYTHING about us.
AND still loves us.
AMAZING!

Happy Valentine's Day! :)
hope everyone has a great day!

All Prayed Up!

Sometimes there are things in life that you want to do something for but there is nothing you can do. atleast physically to make you feel like you are doing something. I think we have all been there. Whether is has happened to you or your friend tells you about something in their life. We just long to do something. We want to help and control this situation maybe just a little bit. BUT God is in control and there is something we can do.

PRAY.

It might not feel like you are helping but God knows your heart. He knows everything about you and He knows exactly how you feel. Sometimes it isn't easy and sometimes it is our last resort instead of our first. But God knows and He is in control.

Lately I've realized I have "given up". WOAH! hold on. let me explain. There are several people that I pray for. Some of them is because their life isn't right with God. I know it. I want to help but everything I do seems to push them further away so I just started praying. Lately I haven't been praying for them. Why? It seemed like I've been praying for forever and nothing has happened. They are still in the dark.

Then I watched a movie the other day. I forget what it was called but it was about a mormon boy who went on a 3 year missions trip to somewhere in Africa. In the movie this little boy dies and they bring him back to life. I'm not sure how long he was dead but it was days. My first reaction to seeing that was "Yeah Right. you have got to be kidding me." And my second thought was "WOAH! I just limited God to my little box."

God raised Lazrus from the dead.(John 11:1-44) Why can't he do it today? God is God. He can do whatever His big heart desires and without anyone's consent. I think we have really limited God to today's world. People say that oh that was in Bible times and He wouldn't do that today. Why can't he? He IS God. I can think of several miracles where I have seen God work in today's society. It wasn't raising someone from the dead but it was saving lives.

When we are communicating with God, things will go better than if we aren't. We can see that in David's life in 1 Samuel. BUT that doesn't mean there won't be troubles. There will be trials and God wants you to cling to Him. He will lead you through. All you have to do is stick with Him.

Isaiah 46:3b-4
"I created you and have cared for you since before you were born. 4. I will be your God throughout your lifetime- until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you."

God didn't give up on you.
Don't give up on others.
God is in control!
So be sure to get all prayed up! :)

Thats a wrap!

wrapping up 2010 I just wanted to take a look back and see all the new things that have happened.

2010:
*moved to Tennessee (7th state I have lived in)
*have my own apartment
*1st time out of the country (Guatemala)
*1st Easter celebration with a grandparent
*my family started building a house
*went to my first country concert (Garth Brooks was awesome!)
*first time getting my hand stamped for being under 21 (it was an eating place)
*first birthday I had to work on
*bought my first pair of TOMS (you might not think this is a big deal but it changed my life. I highly recommend them!)
http://www.toms.com/womens?view=all
*finished knitting my first scarf (only took 2 years)
*my little sister started high school
*got to watch my brother on TV for the first time
http://wibw.videogenesis.net/watch?v=13410&ref=quadiframe
*had my first "snow day" without the actual snow
*been made fun of more this year than my whole life for the way I talk and how young I look
*bought my first pair of suspenders
*went to San Antonio, TX for the first time (Loved it! everyone should see the riverwalk!)
*introduced to the fabulous word BAZINGA! (Big Bang Theory)

Just a few things that happened in my life. I wish you all a happy new year!

PS New Years resolution is no soda for a year. (we are doing this as a family!)

Happy Jesus' Birthday!

Merry Christmas!
I know this is a little late but I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I hope everyone enjoyed getting together with family and friends and all the holiday food. Most of all I hope you remembered the real reason for Christmas.

This Christmas I learned something new. Most of us have heard the Christmas story. About Mary being a virgin and then Joseph and Mary traveling to Bethlehem and Jesus being born in a barn and laid in a manger. I was missing all the details though.

The one part I found truely amazing this Christmas was the wise men. There were 2 things I realized:
1. Do you know how long the three wise men to travel to see Jesus? following the north star. 2 years. yes 2 years. Jesus wasn't even conceived at 2 years! That just shows that God had a plan. He is always in control and will guide you through everything.
2. One of the wisemen brought Myrrh. I think this is what they poured over the bodies back then when they were dead. This connects what Jesus came to do for us. He came to die. I thought that was interesting.

I am thankful for all God has given me but especially His son. Because he showed love is why we celebrate the season.

Merry Christmas everyone! :)